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Paul Is My Apostle’s New Home

August 7th, 2009 by under Living in Grace. 2 Comments.

I can’t believe it’s been nearly a year since I’ve blogged here. I have learned a lot in the last year. I only wish I’d shared it here.

I have been suffering from intense fatigue which has gotten increasingly worse in 2009. I believe that my thyroid is not functioning properly, but so far I have not been able to work up the energy to find a doctor who will take me seriously and treat my symptoms.  My last blood test came back “normal” to which my primary care physician suggested that I was depressed. He offered a precription for anti-depressants which I refused.  I do not suffer from depression to the degree that I need medication (which often makes things worse).  I believe everyone suffers from depression on occasion, which is pretty much normal and par for the course since after all we do live in a sin-cursed world. Even our Apostle Paul suffered from depression.

When your thyroid is not functioning properly, your adrenals can often be at the root of the problem. Of course there’s no way the problem is that I’m working 32 hours a week at a very stressful job, which involves a 100 mile a day commute, have a disabled child to care for, and am working an additional 20+ hours a week doing the accounting and PR to help grow my husband’s business. No wonder my house isn’t fit for company. Thankfully the Mister’s business is doing well, and we hope one day that I can quit my job and work with him full time.

I used to be able to take one day each weekend off to just kick back and totally relax. This hasn’t been the case for many months. Things got much worse in March, when I was attempting to get our income taxes completed and was also experiencing a big learning curve for getting sales tax completed for my husband’s business.

I have had a difficult time attending church for several months as my energy level has been very, very low.  I have to be very careful to not get myself stressed out, or it saps my energy even more.  There is no way I can quit my job at this time, so I have to protect myself from stress as much as possible. It’s really hard to explain to people the degree of tiredness I experience, even my own husband doesn’t understand. It was such a revelation to me to read Adrenal Fatigue and discover that the way I was feeling wasn’t my imagination.  Every single stressful thing that happens is a drain on the adrenals. I used to be able to bounce back, but now it takes days, instead of minutes. Literally. I used to be able to get by with napping for two hours one day on the weekend, now I’m finding that I come in from milking at 5am, I’m so exhausted that I have to lay down again and sleep five hours. It really takes a lot of time out of the day to have to sleep so often.

One thing I try to keep in mind is, “Thank God I have my salvation.”

Thank God I don’t have to worry about performing and doing and working earning those brownie points so that I’ll be able to get into heaven.  If we were commanded to do “works” to get into heaven, I’d be devastated as I just don’t have the energy to do anything more than the bare minimum.

Rom 11:6  And if by grace, then is it no more of works: otherwise grace is no more grace. But if it be of works, then is it no more grace: otherwise work is no more work.

Thank God I finally understand how to read the Bible – rightly divided – so that His precious word to us makes sense.

Saved by Grace,

pima

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